UGH!! What is WRONG with me?!?! Everyone I know loves this book, I mean not just love, but they want to have it's babies. But I just CAN NOT get into it. I swear I just want to fall asleep every time I start it. It's so depressing!! I mean, I get that it's supposed to be, but why does everyone want to read that? I just don't get it. What am I missing?
Sloane knows better than to cry in front of anyone. With suicide now an international epidemic, one outburst could land her in The Program, the only proven course of treatment. Sloane’s parents have already lost one child; Sloane knows they’ll do anything to keep her alive. She also knows that everyone who’s been through The Program returns as a blank slate. Because their depression is gone—but so are their memories.
Under constant surveillance at home and at school, Sloane puts on a brave face and keeps her feelings buried as deep as she can. The only person Sloane can be herself with is James. He’s promised to keep them both safe and out of treatment, and Sloane knows their love is strong enough to withstand anything. But despite the promises they made to each other, it’s getting harder to hide the truth. They are both growing weaker. Depression is setting in. And The Program is coming for them.
Also, I feel like there are just so many inconsistencies or things that just don't make sense. Like how they're under such a strict watch because they may commit suicide at any moment, but then they're allowed to go off camping together (two teenagers, mind you) where they could off themselves, no problem. And the whole idea of this just doesn't seem realistic to me at all. All of the adults are either hostile or completely stupid, and their parents? Don't get me started.
I'm about 30% done with it, and I'm wondering, does anything actually happen is this book? Does it pick up? What is it that everyone else connects with that I'm too stupid to see? Maybe it's that I just don't like feeling depressed. I don't read much contemporary, and this book almost reads like one so far.
What do you think? Should I keep going? Or is it just one I'm better off ditching? Why did/didn't you like it?