by Sarah Elizabeth Schantz
File Size: 2115 KB
Print Length: 352 pages
Publisher: Margaret K. McElderry Books (April 7, 2015)
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Love and sacrifice intertwine in this brilliant and provocative debut of rare beauty about a girl dealing with her mother’s schizophrenia and her own mental illness.This story took my breath away. I am not the kind of person that cries, especially while reading a book but this one really got me. It was so touching and beautifully written I highly recommend it.
Fig’s world lies somewhere between reality and fantasy.
But as she watches Mama slowly come undone, it becomes hard to tell what is real and what is not, what is fun and what is frightening. To save Mama, Fig begins a fierce battle to bring her back. She knows that her daily sacrifices, like not touching metal one day or avoiding water the next, are the only way to cure Mama.
The problem is that in the process of a daily sacrifice, Fig begins to lose herself as well, increasingly isolating herself from her classmates and engaging in self-destructive behavior that only further sets her apart.
Spanning the course of Fig’s childhood from age six to nineteen, this deeply provocative novel is more than a portrait of a mother, a daughter, and the struggle that comes with all-consuming love. It is an acutely honest and often painful portrayal of life with mental illness and the lengths to which a young woman must go to handle the ordeals—real or imaginary—thrown her way.
We get a peek into the life of Fig and what she considered normal life. As an only child that lives on a farm she is inseparable from her mother. But when Fig turns six her mother has a psychotic break down and the family has to close ranks to try to make a liveable home.
Fig's grandmother takes on a bigger role in caring for her, but Fig has never been close to her grandmother. Fig's father is struggling to maintain the farm and trying to support Fig and her mother who they put in a hospital for awhile. He finds comfort in the routine and hard work of working on the farm.
Fig tells us her story from six years old to nineteen, an age she is dreading because that was when her mother had her first psychotic episode. There is a very melancholy feel to the story as Fig has a very hard time not only adjusting to the new family structure but also making friends and begins to take her mental frustrations out in different ways into the physical world.
I am ready to vote this as my favorite book of the year. The prose was so beautiful and emotionally on point to bring the reader right into Fig's world. It really touches on some hard situations and insight into families dealing with mental illness and hard relationships.